Week 4

 I realized I'm outgrowing my friend group. Every time I hang out with them in a group setting I find myself irritable. I feel drained so easily. It's nothing they've done, I think we're just growing apart. I've grown to heavily prefer one-on-one time with my friends. I went on a trip to NYC with my friend over the weekend and I really enjoyed my time with him. It felt freeing going in any store we wanted and leaving when we were done without having to worry about 8 other people who also want to look around. When I spent time with my friend group the next day I found that I was impatient and frustrated. They often spent 40+ minutes in stores the size of a shed. I know I'm not a patient person. Every time I feel slightly tired, hungry, or irritated I shut down. Sometimes even when I'm enjoying spending time with my friends I'll completely stop talking. I'm not mad or anything, just tired and a lot of the time the person I'm with assumes I'm mad or bored. It's a flaw I'm trying to work on. Even in New York I started shutting down. I love travelling, but I felt drained from the heat, walking, and crowds. I know everyone gets like this sometimes, but I get tired at events I really shouldn't get tired at. I'm an active person, and I normally get okay sleep but it's like the second I have a fun event I turn into a zombie. It ruins the fun. I get fatigued whether I'm going to a small local shop or walking 15k steps in 85 degree heat. I think I'm going to stop going to group events